There are times when I read tarot, and I get a certain feeling – like I’m connecting with a deep energy, a timeless and infinite essence. It is very hard to describe, but when this happens, I feel like asking questions that go beyond the here and now. It’s when I want to peel a few more layers and see what lies beneath the surface, and it’s all about me.
A while ago now, when I was in “the zone”, I asked the cards What is my true self? I wanted to get to know me, in other words: who am I? I could feel the intense energy as I was shuffling, and knew it would be a loaded answer. And here you have it: The Fool – The Lovers – The Magician. The Haindl deck is an amazing divinatory and sacred work of art. To get 3 majors in a row like that left me a little shocked, to be honest.
So, what does it all mean? I am not sure an answer is straightforward – because it is the type of answer that takes months and years to digest, to understand and to realize. So far, The Fool relates to my need to explore life, to be on a journey, to live for an adventure; to be free, and to be spontaneous. The Lovers, that is my life path number. There is some karmic energy to sort through with regards to The Lovers, specifically around partnership choices. And the Magician is about having the ability to create magic, which is something I am learning more about. It’s not just about studying the occult (personally I have a strong interest in the field), but it’s also about realizing that I have the power and ability to direct my life and make whatever I set my sights on happen.